WTF Jamie?

I could tell from the moment I stepped onto the plane to return home I was going to be like this. Confused, bewildered, shock and awe if you will. You see I went for the soul purpose of seeing my best friend, knowing how much I did not like it.

Upon arrival I had my guard up. Making sure to notice the dirt, the stench and the soulless city that I had never really cared for but having someone I care for there demanded my return. It was great to see him and to know first hand he is ok and always will be. I knew it but I needed confirmation.

The next day I woke with no agenda and plenty of time. I opened up just enough to let some of you in. I put on your soundtrack, took you in. I was warming up. You had me and it was only a matter of time before you tightened your grip.

Blinded by spirits I dove into your darkness drinking, laughing, and taking you in. Reality smacked me on the lips and I pulled back enough to see where this was headed. That is when you sent in the ace. Something desirable, something I am unable to have and find here. Doting me I felt like a king.

In an instance it was over, the love affair with something I didn't like; only it left me wanting more.